As I’m writing this, I can’t help but get excited thinking about what a long journey it has been to try and make this dream come to life; and FINALLY, I feel like I am going in the right direction.
I have been performing (acting, dancing, singing - even though I CANNOT sing for the life of me) since I was a little girl. I would dress up in costumes and stand on my great-grandmother’s brick fireplace that was about 1 1/2 feet off the ground, pretending that it was a stage, and putting on a show for whoever would watch. Even if it meant dancing around to “Barney” songs for an audience of teddy bears, I would still put my ALL into each and every performance.
Fast forward to my teenage years, I had already accomplished a lot in terms of entrepreneurship before I even reached legal driving age (which is 16 here in the states). At 13, I taught myself HTML over the summer break before 8th grade and had created a website “for teens by teens” called Teen Revolution (it used to be teenrev.com, but now it’s someone else’s domain). Basically, I had kids around my age from all over the country writing articles on various topics and then submitting their articles to me. I would then edit them all, put them on the website on their respective topic pages, make all the graphics, and upload the site to the web. The content was created and updated monthly, and even though it was A LOT of work (especially once I started 8th grade in the fall), it didn’t feel like work to me because I LOVED what I did.
But then, right when my website was becoming extremely popular and things couldn’t have been better, everything changed in the blink of an eye. Tragic circumstances resulted in our family ended up having to move in with some relatives and they did not have the internet, which was obviously crucial to me being able to run my beloved webzine. So, reluctantly, I shut down the site... but always thought that when things got better, I could start up another one.
Unfortunately, by the time things seemed to be getting “better”, I was already in high school and my priorities had completely changed due to a lack of free time. I did what I could to work writing into my schedule (such as serving on the High School newspaper as the Front Page Editor, writing poems when I got home from Cheerleading practice and work no matter how late it was, etc).. but I knew that trying to design and start up a whole new website was something that was just not going to happen.
I do believe everything happens for a reason, though, and although I couldn’t see it then, I think the reason I just wasn’t able to start and maintain a new site at that time was because I simply wasn’t put on this earth for ONLY that. Why do I believe that?
Well.. it all comes down to the way I feel inside when I am performing versus when I am sitting in front of a computer screen for countless house writing code. When I was cheering at a football game in front of the crowd, I felt complete; it felt like I was doing what I was meant to do... perform. But when I was doing the few side jobs I did building websites for local businesses, I just didn’t feel... happy. It didn’t feel right anymore.
And then, one day, fate intervened and I was cast on a reality show called “Date My Mom” that used to air on MTV. I was 18 then... and ever since that true experience in front of the camera, I have KNOWN that I was born to entertain. Whether it be dancing, modeling, or (my DREAM) acting... it’s what I was meant to do.
So I’ll start with making videos & vlogs, and taking modeling photos. And wherever it leads me to, that’s where I’ll go. But I’ll never forget about that little girl, standing on the fireplace, singing her heart out... and I’ll work as hard as I can to make her dream come true.